Lonely Dirt Road

de Dax

When I need space that's where I go
A place to escape that nobody knows
Where I feel free to let things go
And face this evil that burdens my soul
I bring my hatred, I pack my pain
All the emotions I cannot explain
It's where I found God and filled that hole
It's he, myself, and I on that lonely dirt road

I needed somewhere to take my mistakes
I didn't want my family to see me cry
They'll never know I'm carrying all of this weight
Dealing with the pressure of trying to provide
No sign of struggle can show on my face
They ask if I'm okay, I just flash them a smile
Fire up that engine to take me away
I'm speeding through emotions with every mile
On that road is where I find my peace
I remember daddy told me 'bout some times like these
On that road is where my mind's at ease
I keep driving life away, rejecting change, so

I tried my best to plant the seeds and then
I watered everything that was in my life
But as a man, the only flowers that you get are
When you're six-feet under on the day you die
I think I feel the pain my father felt, it's finally sinking in
Looking back all I see is his eyes
He said that house is not a home unless you build it
On respect with some kids and a loving wife
If these walls could talk, I bet they'd say it's all my fault
That I don't try hard
That I ain't man enough, that I ain't standing up
That I just burn everything that my hands touch, o-oh
If these walls could talk, I bet they'd say I'm to blame
That I'm the one who put myself inside of all of these chains
That my addictive personality's what ran them away
And that I hurt myself by staying quiet and not expla-
Ining I'm broken in places I can't even see
I know there's gotta be a Heaven 'cause the hell that's in me
Is taking a dangerous toll
That I'm paying with all of my soul