Looped Thought Process - Mixed

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I been tryna hold tight
Nobody can hear when my soul cries
I just disappear within these walls I
Created to survive all these long nights, no lie

All my energy been stolen from this cold life
Wonder what would happen if I don't fight
Tryna tell myself that I'll be alright
So I promise that I'ma hold tight
Even if they can't hear when my soul cries
I'll just disappear into these walls I
Created to survive all these long nights, I'm so tried
All my energy been stolen from this cold life
Wonder what would happen if I don't fight
Tryna tell myself that I'll be alright, give it more time

If opposites attract then why has happiness been running away?
Once I get a glimpse, my instincts telling me it's not okay
It's only putting distance in the love I've been tryna chase
It starts just hurting you until you learn that that's not the case
My family say they miss me, we live in the same house
Homies say they love me, but they ain't even reached out
So I think, maybe everyone's going through it themselves
And if they strong enough to fight it, then I should learn that myself
So I keep quiet, wear a smile even though they don't what's behind it
And when I'm in a better place, I'm sure I'll be reminded
Of why I shouldn't be, I hate it but that's how my mind is
But I've come to find that everyone's tryna

Hold tight
Nobody can hear when my soul cries
I just disappear within these walls I
Created to survive all these long nights, no lie

On this road of twists and turns, all I want's to stay aligned
Sick of feeling like my purpose is to try and stay alive
Waiting on my time to flourish I'm done standing in this line
Dig my way up out this grave I dug from years of playing blind
You asked for strength, so then why you expect life is gon be easy
Ask for peace but you only know the difference when it start feeling
Like your world is closing in
You hit the bottom and meet your demons
In the moment you're in hell but the other side gives it it's reason
Held tight but grip slipped went down a route that's hard to shake
Met addiction and she found me at a time when I needed saving
Life's a trip that never stops, God not supposed to give us breaks
We learn to move as we go through it so I feel when you say

I been tryna hold tight
Nobody can hear when my soul cries
I just disappear within these walls I
Created to survive all these long nights, no lie

Balancing these lows by getting so high
Tricked me into thinking I was alright
Took me everything to let it go I
Lost out on a lot wish, I had more time
Life gon' play us wrong
And we're not supposed to understand it all

So I promise that I'ma hold tight
Even if they can't hear when my soul cries
I'll just disappear into these walls I
Created to survive all these long nights, I'm so tried
All my energy been stolen from this cold life
Wonder what would happen if I don't fight
Tryna tell myself that I'll be alright, give it more time